It's been a while...

So much has been going on I just don't know where to start! A few weeks ago I went to the doctors to find out why I was bleeding for 10+ days and the pain was severe. I ended up having a d&c and hysteroscopy to see what was going on with my uterus. Basically he found nothing besides extra tissue. I went for my two week check up and he was saying I don't ovulate and he want me to start on clomid and see if we can get pregnant. Dismissing my pain and bleeding. Then I asked about my tubes being blocked and he blew it off. So I went home crying because I'm still having cramps bad and now I haven't had my period yet. He is normally an amazing doctor and I really like him but I feel like this time he failed all my hope. So hubs and I decided we aren't gonna start on clomid with him because last time he was saying I ovulated and I did not.

So I decided to make an appt with my RE and see what options we have for getting pregnant at this point. I'm going to ask him about doing an hsg to see if my tubes are blocked. From there if they are we have no hope for an IUI, but if they aren't it's possible to try! I love dr google and I was reading about the possibility to fixing my tubes if they are blocked so I'm going to be bringing that up too.

If we have no hope there then we will be taking our tax return and headed towards our FET! (So much for new carpet lol a baby is more important at this point) We have 6 embabies which equals out to two cycles we can do so that will be our next steps towards the new year if we can't do IUI.

If I don't get pregnant in 2014 I really believe that we will have to give up on our dream of biological children unless with some miracle my body stops hating me and giving me awful pain! Our appt is on the 18th so I hope this next week goes by fast so we can get a plan together!!

We have past our 4 year mark and at this point I'm ready to sell everything I own so that we can get pregnant!! But that's where we are now. Hopefully I have amazing news in a week and a half!

164 days!!!

Its been a long road these past two years. My mind has switched back and forth and I've been praying for the right path for us. We started on the foster care process, but put it on a halt because Timmy is trying to finish school and I'm trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I'm almost finished with school and I really don't know what I want to do. I started up a new business with Thirty-One and I'm really wanting to get that on the go. I have my Why set at adoption right now, but a few days ago I received a bill for our precious little embryos. My mind has always wondered what to do with them, but I feel as though if I don't give those embabies a shot I will never know what could have been. More so lately since I received that bill I have been thinking more and more about it and we have now decided that we are going to give it another go. I really feel like I cannot move forward with adoption until I know for sure what these embryos have in store of us. I have started my dieting and plan on walking everyday with the kids up to the park with what summer days we have left. In January is our plan to start our journey on FET. We haven't told a soul yet because we are wanting to make sure all works out money wise, which we will have a definite answer in December! This road has been tough these past 4 years and I feel that it is going to get tougher before it gets easier! If this doesn't work I'm not sure our next steps, but for now I don't want to think about that! I want to stay positive towards this!! :)