We have only two more weeks left until we start our IVF process! I will start BCP, plus it will start with all the needles. All the bloodwork. AHHHH..
Plus only two more weeks until TImmy's surgery!
Its getting so close and I'm getting more nervous by each day! I'm so excited, but very nervous. I'm scarred it won't work. Scarred that something will go wrong. Scarred our cycle would get cancelled.
All the what-ifs are running through my head! What if I don't produce enough eggs. What if TImmy really doesn't have any sperm.
I hate that all these things are running through my head. I'm trying to relax because stressing isn't helping anything. Its just so nerve wreaking waiting!!
I'm super excited though. I'm so ready to be pregnant. I'm so ready to be a mommy! I'm just so excited!!! <3 I've been waiting for sooooooooo long, I'm sooooooooo ready!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Donor
Well I said I'd write a new blog about our donor so here I am although I should be writing my essay's for our test tomorrow lol.
We have picked out our donor. This is one of the most difficult decisions in our life. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought that we would need one! Its so much to come to terms with.
When we first heard that we were going to need a donor back up Timmy flipped. He said he didn't want to do it and all of that. In my mind it was a back up but we will still have Timmy's sperm as first choice. I couldn't imagine what was going through his head.
As we talked more and more Timmy sorta came to terms with it as it's a back up plan.
As Timmy was having more and more tests done everything was coming up clear. It was looking as if Timmy didn't have any sperm and thats when I broke down. I couldn't take anymore. As healthy as TImmy is and as fine as everything was we still had no answers as to why the heck his sperm was low. I figured that this was the end as there was no more tests to be done, which meant it was looking like we could only use donor sperm. There are two surgeries which I mentioned in my last post. Except the fact that Timmy had the price wrong of the TESE. Its only $1,400.
We decided that we will have DS as back up, but if all goes well and Timmy just has blockage like the doctor says, then we won't need it, but it will be there so that we can still start our BCP in March and have our April IVF!
Many ask why go through with IVF if there is a surgery to correct Timmy's problem.
First IVF is cheaper route, plus we are already doing TESE and the sperm will be there if he has some, so we don't want that going to waste.
The other surgery is $20,000 dollars and the doctor doesn't believe that it's covered under our insurance since IVF isn't covered. Also with the other surgery Timmy would need to take off 6 weeks and we just can't afford that plus it would put us back to not even being able to try again til winter by the time we could get caught back up with him being off.
He will eventually go get the major surgery done before we decide to have another child, if we do. It will be a later time when that happens though.
So there is our story about how the SD works =)
We have picked out our donor. This is one of the most difficult decisions in our life. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought that we would need one! Its so much to come to terms with.
When we first heard that we were going to need a donor back up Timmy flipped. He said he didn't want to do it and all of that. In my mind it was a back up but we will still have Timmy's sperm as first choice. I couldn't imagine what was going through his head.
As we talked more and more Timmy sorta came to terms with it as it's a back up plan.
As Timmy was having more and more tests done everything was coming up clear. It was looking as if Timmy didn't have any sperm and thats when I broke down. I couldn't take anymore. As healthy as TImmy is and as fine as everything was we still had no answers as to why the heck his sperm was low. I figured that this was the end as there was no more tests to be done, which meant it was looking like we could only use donor sperm. There are two surgeries which I mentioned in my last post. Except the fact that Timmy had the price wrong of the TESE. Its only $1,400.
We decided that we will have DS as back up, but if all goes well and Timmy just has blockage like the doctor says, then we won't need it, but it will be there so that we can still start our BCP in March and have our April IVF!
Many ask why go through with IVF if there is a surgery to correct Timmy's problem.
First IVF is cheaper route, plus we are already doing TESE and the sperm will be there if he has some, so we don't want that going to waste.
The other surgery is $20,000 dollars and the doctor doesn't believe that it's covered under our insurance since IVF isn't covered. Also with the other surgery Timmy would need to take off 6 weeks and we just can't afford that plus it would put us back to not even being able to try again til winter by the time we could get caught back up with him being off.
He will eventually go get the major surgery done before we decide to have another child, if we do. It will be a later time when that happens though.
So there is our story about how the SD works =)
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Surgery?
Well on Thursday we had a meeting at the urologist to go over our options now that we know that its not his hormone levels, nor is sperm in his urine, and everything else is good.
There could be one of two problems that are going on.
First, Timmy's tubes could be blocked and that's why their not getting through. There are two different things that can be done.
Option 1: Cost= $1,400. Pretty sure insurance doesn't cover this. To go directly into the sac get 12 vials of semen out and have enough sperm for IVF. This will require 4-5 days of him being off work.
Option 2: Cost=$15,000-$20,000. Insurance might cover it. They would go in and fix the problem completely. They would clear the blockage and then we *might* be able to concieve through IUI or naturally, since I have problems not sure it would work, but atleast we'd know that he'd be fixed. This would require 6-8 weeks of no working.
Or the second thing it could be is that he might not make sperm at all. He said he doesn't think its this problem, but it potentially could be.
Now I have my own take on it. I'm not a doctor nor do I know anything, but what I do know is that we started out at the very beginning when Timmy had his first SA, he had 1million or more sperm. (its a very low number, but doable with IVF) When we had our first IUI he had 4-5 sperm. Then third SA, resulted in no sperm at all. Now if his tubes are blocked like that doctor thinks, don't you think that Timmy woulda had no sperm from the beginning? They are saying the blockage is from when he had an infection back in 2007. I highly doubt that it could go from that many sperm to none. Again I'm not a doctor nor do I study that stuff, but I think its very weird how it could go from so much to none over a span over 4 months. In my all heart honesty I don't think he makes any. Maybe I'm wrong, and just trying to settle it in my brain so I'm not crushed if it does turn out that way when he has one of the procedures done, but I have to be realistic.
We have decided to go with Option 1. We are praying whole heartedly that there is sperm in there and we are going at it a shot in the dark. We are going to have to get a loan from the bank because we don't have enough to cover IVF ourselves, but we are hoping to get the full amount for IVF that way we will have enough money ourselves to cover this surgery plus the meds and ICSI.
If we can't get a loan for the full amount of IVF we are going to have to put it off until we can save it. Which won't be until the fall. We are hoping and praying the bank will work with us and understand where we are coming from. We have paid down all of our CC debt plus paid some off. We have both cars paid off. So we are in a good financial standing we just don't have the money saved and it would take us a year to do!
If Timmy has no sperm after doing the procedure then we will have to wait an extra month to collect the money for a donor. We have it saved now, but that will go towards Timmy's surgery so we will have to wait til April to start BC so we could have the extra money for the donor(I'll write another blog about this subject as this one is getting very long).
If Timmy does have sperm and its great then he will take some time off to have the surgery done so that we could do it on our own next time we can get pregnant!
So we have a basic plan of what we are going to do. Lets pray but April 2011 we will have our little baby Savannah Joy or Bentley Joseph on the way!! KMFX
Anyways I will be doing another blog maybe tomorrow about the donor!!
There could be one of two problems that are going on.
First, Timmy's tubes could be blocked and that's why their not getting through. There are two different things that can be done.
Option 1: Cost= $1,400. Pretty sure insurance doesn't cover this. To go directly into the sac get 12 vials of semen out and have enough sperm for IVF. This will require 4-5 days of him being off work.
Option 2: Cost=$15,000-$20,000. Insurance might cover it. They would go in and fix the problem completely. They would clear the blockage and then we *might* be able to concieve through IUI or naturally, since I have problems not sure it would work, but atleast we'd know that he'd be fixed. This would require 6-8 weeks of no working.
Or the second thing it could be is that he might not make sperm at all. He said he doesn't think its this problem, but it potentially could be.
Now I have my own take on it. I'm not a doctor nor do I know anything, but what I do know is that we started out at the very beginning when Timmy had his first SA, he had 1million or more sperm. (its a very low number, but doable with IVF) When we had our first IUI he had 4-5 sperm. Then third SA, resulted in no sperm at all. Now if his tubes are blocked like that doctor thinks, don't you think that Timmy woulda had no sperm from the beginning? They are saying the blockage is from when he had an infection back in 2007. I highly doubt that it could go from that many sperm to none. Again I'm not a doctor nor do I study that stuff, but I think its very weird how it could go from so much to none over a span over 4 months. In my all heart honesty I don't think he makes any. Maybe I'm wrong, and just trying to settle it in my brain so I'm not crushed if it does turn out that way when he has one of the procedures done, but I have to be realistic.
We have decided to go with Option 1. We are praying whole heartedly that there is sperm in there and we are going at it a shot in the dark. We are going to have to get a loan from the bank because we don't have enough to cover IVF ourselves, but we are hoping to get the full amount for IVF that way we will have enough money ourselves to cover this surgery plus the meds and ICSI.
If we can't get a loan for the full amount of IVF we are going to have to put it off until we can save it. Which won't be until the fall. We are hoping and praying the bank will work with us and understand where we are coming from. We have paid down all of our CC debt plus paid some off. We have both cars paid off. So we are in a good financial standing we just don't have the money saved and it would take us a year to do!
If Timmy has no sperm after doing the procedure then we will have to wait an extra month to collect the money for a donor. We have it saved now, but that will go towards Timmy's surgery so we will have to wait til April to start BC so we could have the extra money for the donor(I'll write another blog about this subject as this one is getting very long).
If Timmy does have sperm and its great then he will take some time off to have the surgery done so that we could do it on our own next time we can get pregnant!
So we have a basic plan of what we are going to do. Lets pray but April 2011 we will have our little baby Savannah Joy or Bentley Joseph on the way!! KMFX
Anyways I will be doing another blog maybe tomorrow about the donor!!
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