So much sooner..

Yesterday I went for my bloodwork and found out that on June 13th I will be going for my baseline testing or whatever, which is an ultrasound and bloodwork. I'm guessing it means that I will be starting stims soon after! I'm a nervous wreak!! EKKK I wasn't so nervous til now! I even ran up over a 4inch concrete block because I can't think straight! I'm so excited, but very very nervous! I can't get bad thoughts outta my head, going from what if it don't work, what if something happens, what if I get pregnant and miscarry! ughh. Then the thoughts after having a baby worries me too! ughh Then it goes back to thinking about all that stuff that happened to me when I was younger! It makes me even more nervous! blahh.. oh well that's enough! This is what I've wanted my whole life so I'm gonna try and stay positive and pray it I will know more on the 13th! For now I'm on prenatals, antibiotic, and birth control!