We put in our last time at the bank to see if we could get a loan for 5,000 dollars! This will give us all the money we need plus about 1,000 to catch up with what I owe the doctor and pay down more of one CC. This is the longest day of my life. I'm in tears everytime I think about it. I just want a reason to go up to the bank and ask him if he can check and see if its in there. We are waiting to take the check up to Timmy's doctors office for his procedure until we hear if we got the loan because if we don't then Timmy won't be having it done because it will cost us more to freeze the sperm and to keep em there til we can afford IVF.
The longer its taking the more its making me think that we didn't get the loan. =/ It took overnight last time and we didn't get it, so I have a feeling its gonna be the same.
I wish for once that something would just go our way. We've waited so freaking long its just not fair. The odds are seriously against us right now. I'm having such a hard time coping with us I'm about to flip.. AHHH I just want to know if we got it or not. Damn it!!
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